For Luca.

You told me you loved me,
You couldn't live without me.
And now you turn around and say
You never loved me anyway.
You told me you loved me,
But only as a best friend.
You lied to me so desperately.
So my life wouldn't end.

But there's one thing that you forgot.
I never contemplated it.
You were the suicidal one,
And I don't even care one bit.
Not at all, not anymore,
Now I feel all torn inside,
I guess I thought I could be loved,
Before I knew you lied.

I wish I could go back in time
To tell you how I feel somehow.
To let you know I never thought
This pain could be so real right now.
I can't believe you would do this
I must have not been right for you.
You had to feel so sorry for,
The things that were not true.

But now I know you lied to me,
I can't believe you'd even dare.
I didn't even know of her.
I hope y'all made a real good pair.
I'm stuck in isolation now,
Wishing to be held with love.
But I guess I never will,
Until I'm up above.

I just don't understand it yet,
It's really not my fault.
I wish you knew just how I feel,
It's like an open wound with salt.
Please help me to know just why,
You'd do something like this to me.
And all this pain I feel right now,
I only want to flee.

I would have left you all alone,
Had I known just how you felt.
I really thought you needed me,
But you only needed yourself.
I wish I would have known before,
You really didn't love me back.
But people like to lie to me,
I just want to know these facts.