Fall

Every quart of the night I woke
It went 12, 3, 6
Constant pains in my stomach
So seemingly consistent

The time away has made me freak
My hope so fluctuating
It took me a week to do the deed
To tell you how much I care

I was scared and I was shaking
Seems all I can do is ache
For fairness appears on such the offbeat
And heartbreak conquers all

Thoughts of the worse are all that’s left
In so many ways that’s me
Knowing the world is watching me fall
And watching myself proceed

Like to feel it is over before it begins
Somehow, feeds me reassurance
For knowing I can be right about something
In theory, it lessens the fall.