Waiting in the Dark

Leave me alone
As I waste my day
Don't try to talk
I have nothing to say.
If I'm not willing
I won't stay and hear
About your lies
Why you need me here.
I don't understand
Why is life so hard?
I'm locked in a room
And the windows are barred.
There is a key
That unlocks my fate
Please, let me out
Before it's too late
Stupid; pathetic
And I don't know why
But I want to kill
Or myself, just die
These thoughts, so wrong
Won't come out of my head
But I keep seeing pictures
Of me lying there, dead.
Very detailed
Seems so very real
I wish it were the pain,
Not the heartbreak, that I feel.
No amount of Band-aids
Or kisses of care
Could ever quite mend
This everlasting tear.
Frienship is something
Very special to me
But if it's only one-sided
Then it's not meant to be,
I sit here in silence
I wait for the sound
Of your voice when you say
You again want me around.