To much to take

I cant explain this hurt.................
deep with in my soul, its bleeds. bleeds and screams out with anger. so much anger i am almost to exploded.

my head spins with confused emotions. i don't understand why i cant fight off this sadness. why must you be this way, and way must i feel its my fault???

there are no words that will ever be able to say how much betrayal you have burned into my heart. forever being untrusting no way would i want to feel the way i felt that day. no one will ever be close to me. this way there is no chance my heart can be crushed.

you took every thing i have ever dreamed away, there are no more sweet dreams about greatness. only horrible nightmares of you touching me. i feel so dirty and no mater how many time i wash i still feel you.

i am so lost in what if, and will you ever do it again. not just to me what if one of my sisters are next. i just could not live with myself if you were to do it again.

i feel no one understands, i feel i have no one to hold me. i don't hear any i love yous. all this is just to much to take........

leona daviS