Confused Heart

Kay.. well I've never cheated on a boyfriend before, nor will I ever.. but lately my ex, who was my first love, and who i went out for 2 years w. has been IMing me and trying to make me fall for him again, but the thing is, i have a bf who i love So so so so sooo much. so i decided to write this poem about the confusion i felt... again- I AM NOT CHEATING AND I NEVER WILL!!

I stare into your eyes
and tell you that I love you
but then quickly look away, so you don't think that I'm telling lies
I don't know what to do

I go home and think about you
but in the back of my mind, there is a thought of him
I really have no clue
Let the confusion begin

When you smile it lights up my day
and when you laugh it sends a shiver up my spine
it tries to tell me that everything will be OK
and you look at me and ask whats wrong, and i reply don't worry I'll be fine

Many girls don't even have a boyfriend
and here I am with two fighting for the place
I want to be with both of you in the end
and for you both to have a smile on your face

But I know that will never happen, not in a million years
What do I do?
I won't let them see my tears
that I cry over you

I would hate to hurt either of you guys
It would kill me inside
I hate to tell you lies
and have them serve as a guide

I stare into your eyes
but in the back of my mind, there is a thought of him
When you smile it lights up my day
I want to be with both of you in the end
But I know that will never happen, not in a million years
I would hate to hurt either of you guys

Which is why
I have no idea who to choose
because I love both of these amazing guys
and one of their friendships, I don't want to loose

So now comes the part
the part where I choose
I don't want a broken heart,
I have everything to loose