Barely two weeks together...but like we agreed you're not over her and i cant love truly love you until i love myself.
you broke my heart and hurt me...and yet you've also fast tracked me on my path of change, because when i am truly happy with myself there will be a new chance one that i intend to grab hold of and not screw up.
you've made me realize in a few hours that, I'm great the way i am that i don't need to listen to what others think. you've proved that your never going to leave me, and that is all I've ever wanted...someone who wont walk away when things get hard.
i know you didn't want to hurt me but you were right to criticize my faults and I'm fast tracking my changes because i know that i want to stay as close as i can.
I'll be open when you want me to be.
I'll stand by your side when you ask me to.
if you wish i will hug you and just be the me you know i can be.
you've proven to me that i don't need to defend myself from the world all the time. i believe you. and i hope that we will be able to be together again. because even though I've lost our relationship i still love you and i still need you so much.
for now our friendship will be just that a friendship one thats special. i will not let go i never will. i know what i want and I'm not going to be taking things lying down i am going to get out there and fight.
i used to feel sorry for myself and hurt myself but not anymore i swear never again will i hurt myself to cause more pain. i will let the past stay the past and i will learn from what didn't go right and i will work hard to change to be the me i have always wanted to be I'm already on the path i just have to take everything at face value.
our love will remain..but until these changes occur, our friendship is what we will be focused on. friends for life unlike certain others. I'm never letting go, I'm going to fight for this I'm clear on what i want no more confusion. this is how its going to be even if i have to let go of so many other things in my life i will not let go of you. i love you so much and i want another chance.
