Hear me out

I trip over my weakness,
when it comes to you,
to look you in the eyes,
and tell you these words few.

I ask you the questions,
that are deep from my heart,
"i don't know" is all you answer,
as my soul painfully falls apart.

I cant take this anymore,
forever not knowing,
what really lies in your heart,
because all your pride is showing.

Ive never felt love,
until the day we first met,
the feelings you once had for me,
are lost now i start to fret.

I guess this is what you want,
and i hope you find joy,
for i care for you a lot,
and i know you're still that boy.

That i met all those years ago,
when you said you loved me too,
i don't care if i have all this pain,
i just want whats best for you.

I want you to be happy,
because you were my very best friend,
ill always be here for you,
my hand i will always lend.

I know you know me,
so you know what i feel,
its pretty obvious,
but with my lips i try to seal.

I'm sorry for everything,
i know this isn't making it better,
you still mean so much to me,
i cant stand losing you all together.