Once I couldn't see the Lord
cause all the tears I had in my eyes,
In my heart was a sword
and in myself, was nothing but lies;
Man He felt so far away
I thought me, He couldn't see,
So I went through everyday
running away from me;
With Him, I had no hope
cause I didn't think I could feel so bad,
I thought after so much pain, He throws the rope
I didn't see it, so I thought with me, He was mad;
I didn't think I was worth His time
because of the person that I become,
Until He sent me a sign
but still away from Him I did run;
I didn't think I was ready
to follow His Word,
But my pain kept running in steadily
so inside is where I kept it stored;
Physically, emotionally, I broke down
cause I couldn't take another step,
In sin I did drown
so recover myself, I had to take a trip;
It took 17 years
and spending 3 months in jail,
To upfront my fears
and to stand up when I fell;
Now I have love in my heart
for everybody to see,
But I know for my sake, that's a start
and now I can look to the Lord and just be me.
