Story of the night....

Never had i seen you like this...
what started out as a night of bowling between us three... became you two drinking and daring one another to do silly things which was enjoyed all around.

then you had a phone call from 'her' and you were angry and upset so you departed for a while and drank a lot in that time, came back to us only to rest on a nearby bench where you gazed up at the night sky until i came down to you.

i was worried and so sad to see you this way. you told me you were alone and that you remembered none of you primary years. i could see that you were down... i reminded you that you had kat and me and that i loved you...only to be told that you broke my heart...true as it may be, you could hurt me a thousand times and break my heart but i will still love you...and this you know now.

its no surprise you didn't remember any of this, this morning...maybe its best you don't remember all that you told me on the way home....i learned so much about you and it made me sad to know that you had been through so much. when it came time to say goodbye and goodnight never had i so strongly wanted to stay with you and just hold you for as long as i could. i don't want you to be alone i would do anything to stay with you just so you weren't alone.

you apologized for kissing kat i told you don't bother you had no need to apologize...you persisted with apologizing for it. you had fun flashing cars and getting hugs. in the end though i wished for nothing more than to make you happy but i knew that i was not going to be able to make you happy in the way that you want.

i still love you i always will... seeing you that way made me so sad and honestly i was hurting just a little bit by the end of the night. but you are and always will be the most important person in the world for me. i still want to be with you more and more all the time...but i doubt it will ever come to be again.