Little Lies

As I lay awake at night
I stare at the roof
With tears in my eyes
They then roll down my checks

I start to think about
Why I am crying
Its my fault really
I said those things

You didn't need it
Let alone deserve it
I made you feel like shit
I didn't think it through

I had called you Emo
I'm a hypocrite I whisper
As I look down at my wrist
And see the streaks of blood

I had told my friends
I ran into a bush
They believed me
For it was something I would do

Little did they know
For I was lying
But I had that smile on
The one they thought was real

These scenes flashed
Before my eyes as I slept
And I counted the many times
My fake smile showed up.

As these dreams leave my head
I'm back in my bed room
Alone and in the dark
Staring at the roof

I reach for my pillow
Its wet from my tears
And I think to myself
Why do I always do this?

Why do I cry?
Why do I cut?
Why do I care?
Or is it why don't I care?

I really don't have time
To care because by tomorrow
Ill have all new cuts
And this time Ill need a bigger lie