Recalling responsibility

Knowing
Caring
Sharing.

Hate
Yelling
Screaming

It use to be different.
But when he came into my life
Things changed.
Moments I think for the best,
I thought things were real,
In some sense of reality.
But when I see myself sitting here trying to hold back the sockets full of tears,
Making it look like its all alright.
I start to disagree.
& I'm not a little girl anymore,
The difference is up right & close.
Defense if no option for me no longer.

I was always taught to be honest,
& well that's what I thought I was doing.
That's how it was.

Until the day I woke up.
It went wrong.
My thoughts went bad.
My face felt white, cold,
My stomach felt like it had been jabbed & twisted right & left.
I had no control.

I put my hands up against my face putting painful pressure on, as I fell down to my knees.
Time make things right.
Time to turn the lights.