IT HURTS SO BAD INSIDE TO KNOW THAT PEOPLE HATE TO SEE YOU HAPPY. EVEN MORE WHEN IT'S YOUR OWN FAMILY. THEY TELL YOU THEY JUST WANT TO SEE YOU HAPPY....BULL****! WHAT EVER GAVE THEM THE IDEA THAT I WASN'T HAPPY. IT'S EASY FOR ME TO MAKE THEM HAPPY BUT IF I DO THEN I WON'T BE, BECAUSE WHAT THEY WANT WILL TEAR ME APART. SO WHY MAKE SOMEONE ELSE HAPPY WHEN IT'LL TAKE YOUR HAPPINESS AWAY. I DON'T LIKE TO PLEASE PEOPLE, I AM WHO I AM, I WILL HAVE THE FRIENDS I WANT, AND I WILL LOVE WHO I WANT. TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT.I THINK SOMETIMES, HOW SAD IT WOULD BE TO GET MARRIED TO THE PERSON I LOVE SO MUCH WITH ALL MY HEART AND TO KNOW THAT MY FAMILY WON'T BE HAPPY FOR ME. I WISH SO MUCH THEY WOULD BE. BUT I'LL NEVER GIVE IN, I'M GOING TO DO WHAT MAKES ME HAPPY.F**K WHAT THEY HAVE TO SAY OR WHAT THEY THINK, EVEN THOUGH IT HURTS ME SO BAD AND THEY DON'T EVEN KNOW IT. I HATE THEM SO MUCH FOR MAKING ME FEEL LIKE THIS. NO ONE SHOULD EVER HAVE TO FEEL THIS WAY. YEAH I PUT ON MY SMILE FOR THEM AND ACT LIKE NOTHINGS WRONG, IF THEY ONLY KNEW HOW I FELT, I DOUBT THEY'D EVEN CARE. ALL THEY CARE ABOUT IS WHAT THEY THINK AND WHAT THEY WANT. F**K IT. EVERYONE FOR THEIR OWN, IS WHAT I'VE LEARNED OUT OF THIS. IT'S SAD THAT I THINK THAT WAY BUT THIS IS WHAT IT'S LED UP TO. I TRUST NO ONE BUT MY BABY. HE'S THE ONLY ONE THAT'S ALWAYS BEEN THERE FOR ME. HE'S THE ONLY ONE I CAN TELL EVERYTHING TO WITHOUT FEELING LIKE HE'LL JUDGE ME OR PUT ME DOWN. I WILL NEVER LET HIM GO TO MAKE SOMEONE ELSE HAPPY. I LOVE HIM AND HE LOVES ME. SO F**K WHAT MY FAMILY THINKS. THEY DON'T CARE FOR ME SO WHY SHOULD I CARE FOR THEM.
