Put on a smile, fake a laugh.

I spent so many months
Trying to forget about you.
And so many hours
Spent crying, too.

Memories of us
Suppressed in my mind.
Locked in a place
So dark and confined.

I thought it was over.
I though I was done.
"Heartache versus me,"
I thought I had won.

I once was on a one-way road,
Now I have paths to choose from.
My choice gave me new options,
As to the person I can become.

Now, with you out of sight and mind,
I can finally move on.
And leave the ways that I once lived,
That person is now foregone.

I wasn't so terrible, but I did things
That I told myself I'd never do.
You showed me a part of myself
Of which I never knew.

But you can't blame the way I've changed
Entirely on yourself.
Because I was the one who made those decisions
On my own, by myself.

A new beginning, a new world,
A chance to start over.
A new person, a new me,
A new self to discover.

Everything is going great,
I'm no longer stuck on a dream.
We've finally ended
This disastrous scheme.

Then I get a phone call.
And, of course, it's from you.
I thought that I could handle it.
I thought I'd make it through.

And then you asked to make plans,
For just us two to hang out.
I said ok, though I knew I shouldn't,
It was a bad plan, I had no doubt

We met up at our old spot.
Kicked it and had a chat.
I told myself I wouldn't get hooked
On that plan, I fell flat.

How was I to know
That you have such a hold over me?
Your grip on my heart hurt so much,
To an intolerable degree.

But yet, I don't care what I did.
It's done. I can't take it back.
How can I regret what once made me smile
Even though it is now what I lack?

How could I be so dumb?
And try to tell myself lies?
Put on a smile, fake a laugh.
And wear such a bad disguise.

I knew all along
That I wasn't over you.
But I tried to trick myself
And say what wasn't true.

My heart is yours
It will always be
From now, until forever.
Until the end of eternity.