Loraine

I remember her saying this can't stop
she felt hopeless
and lost
she promised to hang on and try to hang on
she kept her head up
and her faith strong
i remember she said shes so sick of everything
but everything is only an illusion
she hated herself and what she has become
a cutter,addict,hypocrite,a destruction
physically shes able
but mentally shes not
she tried getting up
but she ends up falling back down
she tried to do everything in her will
to try to continue and live her life
but the temptation of suicide is so sweet
she can't let to pass by
so she constantly thinks about it
and constantly attempts
but fear runs through her veins
she feared death
Loraine questioned herself day and night
on what she should do with the knife
she came to a conclusion that she can't live anymore
she thought of everything that she's about to lose but nothing came into mind
so she slit her wrist and bled
spilled all of her blood for last night of her life
Loraine's gone now
maybe in a better place
maybe just in a place she's been longing to be in
or maybe she's sitting down up there smiling but still crying within