How life was that day

The temptations of before
surfaced again, life's getting harder
not sure how much i can take
they all say its a phase
you'll get over it soon
its been a year since it happened
when my life turned upside down
each night i cry, praying God
will give me strength for tomorrow
cuz i can't stand anymore
i can't, its getting too hard
i wish i knew a person that
could understand, that could
realize that i don't do this for
attention or to make myself cool
i really want to stop but its
on going and never ending

luckily i didn't start wat ive stopped.....this happened the other night...