Just dont know anymore

I sit all alone in this dark cold room thinking of all the pain that runs threw my body and mind i try so hard and everything i do seems to fall to pieces i don't know who i am anymore some days i just wanna run and hide or just to escape from this darkness to see the light one last time u see only what is pretend but for what i hold inside is far gone and deep hard lies in the shadow tattered and torn i cant take this pain i look at this blade and cry and wondering is it really worth this fight? or should i shed some blood and tears?

hey everbody plz comment and rate my poem i just wrote it today cause i am feeling down so tell what u think thanks