A year has now past and nothing has changed I have lost more as I simply try to gain.
I think to myself why is this happening to me all the hurt and pain, is it all meant to be?
What is it? I ask day after day that I have done to continue living this way.
My smiles have slowly faded from upon my face, but when looking back to where they were they have left not a trace.
I wonder now will they ever return or will the fire in my chest continue to burn?
The whole in my heart as hollow as can be when people look my way do you think the pain they can see?
As day turns to night and night back to day I look deep in myself for the strength to pray.
Yet has that strength knocked on my door, but the pain and the tears I can't seem to ignore.
Does anyone hear me crying in the night, do they hear me screaming inside while with the pain I fight.
I fight to go on no matter what stands in my way, but for some strange reason its persistent to stay.
Am I not strong enough to conquer this fight, will I loose, will I fail, or will I win, I just might?
I tell myself time is what it will take and as I wait for that time to come I must smile even though it might be fake.
My joy, my life, my little star, Who? Why ask, you know who you are?
Each breath that is taken every morning when I wake knowing I have you there next to me is all it will take.
I will fight! I will win! I will conquer all this pain! And that smile that faded will be back upon my face again.
