Comfortable

I thought you cared about me
thats what you said
we were always going to be together
well now I'm alone instead
you said you would always try
that i would be the reason
for me you promised you would die
i really did believe you
but it was all just one painful lie
we lay alone
beside each other
i guess we never really understood
one another
you made me cry
after every single fight
cos every time i thought maybe
there was a different way to end the night
i tried to find a reason
but none were good enough for you
you said that it was this time
you couldn't love me anymore
that you hoped i felt it too
i didn't understand it
why did you have to leave me now
i begged you to give me hope
you said it was too late
and you told me to sit
just listen to what you told me
because after this, that really was it
you said there was no more chances
that it was over, right at that moment it was the end
you didn't want to know me
not even be my friend
i thought you were just stressed
that you couldn't mean those things
but just for a moment
i realized one of my biggest fears
you weren't going to be mine any longer
in my eyes, forming were the tears
the first I'd ever cry for you
they wouldn't be the last
something so amazing
was ripped away from me so fast
i never meant to hurt you
or do the things i did
i didn't want this to happen
i just wish you could have understood
how it felt to be this lonely
but i guess you never would
i didn't want to push you that far
it was just i became so comfy
i wasn't trying to make it hard
not for even a second
did i consider it would become reality
i asked you would you ever leave me
and then you did
you said i got too pushy
and then you said it
you said never again
could you ever love me
you ended the last day of that month after ten
exactly ten months
I'd lived to be with you
it's just another reason
for me to let go
and to forget everything that happened between us too

(thanks Laycie u gave me ideas 4 this!)