Love?

Everything goes to hell
Nothing turns out well
The word love I can't even tell
What is the word really suppose to mean?
What is it trying to tell me?
When people say I love you
What is the word suppose to do?Is it suppose to make me feel risen?
Or make me feel driven?
Or make me feel thats I have lovin?
But when I hear people say that
I would feel nothin
That word or feeling never comes to me
I can never see
So why do people love me when I dont love them back?
Your love just goes into a big sack
A sack of my never ending sorrows
All I do is borrow
Borrow someone else's love
To try and make it dissolve
So what does love really mean?
Is it for real?
Is it suppose to heal?
For love would you kneel?
Is it suppose to make me feel?
Just tell me
What is love suppose to mean?