World of Pain

I'm so sick of this world
mostly happy
and all bright colors
I feel misplaced
like I don't belong
what could I have done wrong
to deserve all this pain
in a world of happiness and color
all I see is black
No one knows
what goes on inside
my heart has been broken
so many times before
now it's just icy, empty, and cold
I've been holding it in
seeming happy and normal
but now I'm just tired
of pretending I'm okay
done living my life that way
so here I am
I haven't changed all that much
just my inside pain is coming out
this is how I've always been