What has happened to me?

It's hard enough to even fake a smile,
But nothings ever easy when your in denial.
How can we fake this and take anymore?
Looking up blindly and trying to ignore.

Well I never thought you'd be so Easily deceived,
But it's something that I didn't want to believe.
All this illusion seems so clear,
But not all things aren't what they appear.

We're mad with regret,
With memories that we'll both forget.
So far it's been so hard,
To cover up these scars.

But maybe nothing else will ever be so clear,
Or maybe that's only my fear.
Maybe I'd find out nothing new,
Or maybe I'd end up just like you.

The constant pressure that keeps hanging over me,
It makes me feel so empty.
It's getting harder to relate,
And I don't want to make the same mistakes.

How long will this take to wear off?
When will I get through this?
But everyday I think to myself,
Why did you do this?