Torn between two

I am torn between two ,
and don't know what to do.
One side theres my partner ,
to 2 of my kids he is the father.
He provides for us the best he can ,
deep down he is a good man.
Hes that much older than me ,
so set in his ways he can be.
I don't love him like he loves me ,
with him for all the wrong reasons you see.
In my past love just caused me pain ,
so I vowed to never love again.
Now I have been reminded of love ,
security and stability are no longer enough.
On the other side theres another man ,
but to leave my partner I know I never can.
This other man I do love very much ,
and I dream of his every touch.
I see what it is about being in love I miss ,
how I'd love to have with him just one kiss.
I wish this other man I'd never met ,
these feelings I have wouldn't be filling me with regret.
Being torn between two is no fun ,
this confusion just makes me want to run.