To What Purpose?

There's so much time
Passing me by
And I'm wondering
To what purpose

Does it matter
Or even count
The little that i do
To help people out

So many hours
I spend in worry
So many days
I waste on my couch

What end is this
My small account
Of all that I've
Achieved in this life

Already feel like
My life is over
When in fact
It's just begun

I've realized now
That i can stand
Make a difference
In somebody's world

It really won't
Matter in ten years
If in this moment
I looked like a freak

If they look back
See i looked lonely
Thought i was proud
Having no close friends

But in the end
I make things happen
Don't look to myself
And puff up my pride

I don't suck up
For more attention
I serve them
Cause they're all lonely

I've seen them
All that they are
They're really alone
And cold and so tired

No one to love
Or call their own
Church is religion
Not about God

Oh how i long
To hold out my arms
To embrace them
Like my father would

To pray over them
His love and joy
So tears dry up
And hope is restored

But now i look on
As they smile at me
Hiding their feelings
Behind a mask

I pray oh God
That you would see them
Show them your heart
And save them from harm

And i pray oh God
You'd hear my cry
For now I feel
They've cast me aside

Cause I choose
To be different
I don't gossip
Or eye the cute boys

I speak in love
Even if it's the truth
I'm always here
If they need a hug

But for now
I'm invisible
And I will be
Faithful to the end

Draw me to you
Make me your reflection
Surround my life
With your presence

I lift you up
In all that i do
You're my best friend
And i live for you