I want to be there

I'm kinda lost in everything,
lost in the world,
like I can't find myself,
or find a reason for my life on this world,
I want to find the one place for me,
the place I want to be forever,
but to find that place will be the hardest thing I ever do,
I've been kinda just in pause the past 17 years,
and I want my life to start,
It's so hard to get this all done,
so I can be where I need to be,
to follow my dream,
which I finally found,
to start a life with the one I love,
and not be here,
I hate it here,
there's nothing for me here,
But will there be all I want to be there?
I don't know,
but I sure like it there,
there is so much better than here,
here is were I grew up,
and there is where I want to start,
There is so much better than here,
But only one more year,
and I should be there,
I can't wait to be there,
Anywhere is better than here.