The mask one day revealed

I see only happiness around me
yet i only wish to frown
people occasionally catch me out and say
"Tuirn that frown upside down!"

Why dont i feel happy?
Why do i feel sad?
Why do i feel like this?
Have i made some one mad?

I hate to feel the way i do
When im usually a happy person
But lately its headed in the opposite direction
only getting worse, drop[ping down further

Everyones always smiling
and occasionally sad
When people are deperessed im there
then i am glad

To have this effect on people
To make them feel like life is worth living
I never ever get back
Only ever giving

A mask must stay on my face
for all eternity
For anyone who tries to reveal
Shall not come near me

One day itl come off
and il break down crying
This will only happen on my death bed
when im slowly, dissapearing, aging, dying

Why cant i be happy?
Why must i wear a mask?
Its not like i take things for granted
Dont care for things, never be rough

I feel its my only option
Someone please take it off
To let me talk it over
To let the weight off my shoulders fall

Bu fopr now until then
my botox look alike smile remains
Because i feel i have no choice, i have no voice
In what happens to me, to the world every day