Hey, my name is Goldie
And I'm an odd kid.
I've always lived my life in Brooklyn
And I'd rather not go anywhere else.
I'm a freshman in high school
And it's terrible.
I wish I had a perfect life
But no one does.
I'd rather just have everything stay the way it is.
Yes this is about my life
And no you don't need to care
Writing is just a way for me to express myself
All the emotions I've bottled up for the past couple of years
Last year I went through depression
I probably would have killed myself
If it wasn't for my teachers and some special friends.
I can't say I'm completly cured
I have my good days and bad
But so does everyone else
I'm very different from anyone else you'll ever meet
But in a way I'm totally and completely the same.
I've been writing poetry ever since 1st grade
And it hasn't left me since
I like to play sports
And I love to listen to music
I get a lot more credit than I'm suppose to
Everyone sees me for more than I am
I'm a very weird kid
With strange thoughts going through my mind
Some people think I'm crazy
But I say everyone's crazy and absolutely nothing is normal
I sit around playing on the computer and watching TV
I do the normal things every other kid does
I'm Korean living in Brooklyn
But I've always had this weird feeling.
I was always the odd one out
Even though I quickly found a friend
And a very good friend that I'd never want to lose
I've been to 3 or 4 different schools
Every class I've been in I was always a problem
There was always drama that I was part of
I never knew how to keep my mouth shut
I still don't know how to
I'm the type of person that's not afraid to say
I don't like you to your face
I cried a lot in school
And even more in my room
Everywhere I went
I always felt weird
I never fit in
Not in school nor at home
I fight a lot with my parents
I fight a lot with a lot of people
Maybe I have anger problems
Maybe I'm just a walking time bomb
My life isn't great
But it isn't horrible either
I shouldn't be complaining
And neither should you
If you're on a computer and actually reading this
It means you have it far better off than most people
I try and think of others before myself
Not that it always happens but still
I give a lot of advice
But usually never take it for my own
I try very hard to be a good person
But I don't know if that happens
I have no idea what I want to be when I get older
I'm actually scared of growing up
I hate changes and I hate fake people
I hate how this world is going into chaos
Sometimes I wish I was a little kid again
But I know I can't keep going back to the past
I really like to sing
But I have a horrible voice
I have major dreams
But I'm not sure if I can make them come true
I often say anything is possible as long as you believe in yourself
But I don't think I've ever actually believed that was true
I sometimes think why keep living if it's so hard
But yet here I am typing this up
I'm going through everyday with all my might
And I hope you'll do the same as well
