See You When I Get Home( Dedicated to A Friend I recently Lost)

Not my best but i don't care

It hurts me that your gone, cause you left me without no words
I wish you would of told me what was wrong, instead your gone is all I herd
Over the phone when your sister called me sounding so frustrated
Next thing you know, funeral arrangements are being made and I just could not take it, i had to get out the house and take myself a couple of deep breaths
Than it hit me you were really gone now this ache inside of my chest
Is hurting more than ever now that I lost a friend that was one of the best.
Of them that I had ever met, in my life and one Ill never forget,
I just wish that you would of let me help you, figure these problems out
No doubt I would do all I could until everything was figured out,
But now its too late and I wish that you were just little bit stronger,
Cause its like you dint even try to hold on a just little bit longer,
But I guess it was not your will to survive, it was your choice to leave,
Even though I'm upset with your decision in my heart you will forever be,
Always for all eternity I will love you, as I'm sure you did me,
If only I had the chance to tell you that before you became deceased,
Now your spirit is no more, its somewhere up in the heavens,
Looking down on those who loved you with a passion that was never ending,
I'm going to miss you, miss talking and hugging you,
Kissing was not a biggie but cuddling was something we loved to do, i wish i could of came and visit you so many times before, but there was always something in the way blocking my chance to walk out the door,
I'm loving you same as always and thats never going to change,
Ill feel the same when we meet in heaven, after I get threw the rain,
Which is life, learning to cope with pain and suffering,
To find meaning in the misery and only than can you live realistically
And happy, thats when you take your wings and fly into the sky,
See old friends relatives and all those that past while you were alive,
And I cant wait until the day me and you meet again,
But for now I'm here on earth living strong for you my friend,
Experiencing for the both of us things you wont get to see,
Or feel physically but I know you can feel these things spiritually,
Cause your right here in my heart to feel the joys I do,
And help me stand tall threw the hard times when I'm having trouble getting threw,
I love you, I cant stress it enough cause I never got to tell you,
Before you left, so here it is again I love you the words that fell threw,
The barrier I had up when you told me how you felt,
Had my eyes shining with happiness brighter than the stars of Aryans belt,
Well I don't know if that made sense cause words cant express feelings,
But I'm sure you get the meaning, come visit me when I'm dreaming,
Show me your happy in a better world thats all I ask,
But I got to go now, Ill miss you girl, your life went by to fast.
I wish it did not have to end so quickly but thats just the way it is,
And I cant change it, so I accept what became of this,
I'm just glad I got to know you for the short time you were here,
I go threw life with you in my heart, until my being disappears,
See you when I get home...in the sky...