Beautiful In Your Eyes

I guess I tried my hardest to be beautiful in your eyes
but only hurt myself telling myself all these lies
No I'm not that skinny and yes I've put on weight
but is that a good reason to not feel so great

I know I am no model even though before you said I could be
but after having children this is what became of me
No I don't wear a size two and fit into my old jeans
but is that a good reason for you to be so mean

I know that you still want me to back into my old size
I see it each time you look at me, theres something different in your eyes
You look at me like someone you don't care to even know
I wish you knew its killing me, I'm dyeing rather slow

I know to you I'm fat you say it all the time
is that whats important or the fact that you are mine
Yes I'd rather be smaller and back to my old size
but if you really loved me I'd still be beautiful in your eyes