This Is How I Feel

I want to let you know how I really feel
When I talk to you about it
You think I’m not being real
I hate seeing the look on your face
When try something and fail
That look doesn’t erase
Even if I prevail
You scream at me until I do better
But when I do
The screaming doesn’t get better
I expect an encouragement when I do as I’m told
But I never get it
Only a shout and a scold
I can’t even tell you when I’ve done something good
You just say I’m glad, you should
You say you can’t handle me because of the way I act
But the only reason why I act this way
Is because I don’t get a response back
All I want is for you to reward me when I do something great
Instead of condemning me saying,
You should have done well in the first place
I hate it how your more strict on me
Because I’m the youngest
Because you don’t want me to make wrong decisions they’ve made
You want me to be the one you’ve accomplished
You won’t let me experience things on my own
Because you think I’m not smart if I think on my own
You tell me who to date
You tell me who are my friends
But it’s my life
Don’t forget that in the end
I want a chance to live too
Just as they have
But you won’t give me the freedom to
You’re too scared I’ll mess up what I have
You get mad at me for yelling when you do the same
But have you actually ever thought of why I do it?
Maybe it’s because I’m hiding the pain
I feel cheated because you wont let me live
You have to let go and trust me
Something’s gotta give
Whenever I try to tell you this
You think I exaggerate
So I feel like I have to write about it
So this anger will go away
I hate when my sisters get mad when I scream
They got a fair lifestyle
And because of that, you’re harder on me
That’s the only way I know how to deal with this
Scream or write
Because everything else
Just never seems right
I want you to know how I feel
Because you don’t seem to care
But all I really want is
Someone to always be there
It used to be so much easier to talk to you when I was young
But now that I actually have problems I can’t tell you
Because you think most of them are dumb
I hope when you read this
You’re eyes will open up
That I am you’re daughter that’s just trying to grow up
I want you to know that I’m being real
I want you to know,
This is how I feel

*I wrote this when i was mad at my parents because we got in an arguement, but i love my parents to death, and i might have exaggerated a lil bit, but usually thats just how i feel....thank you for reading it. *