Waiting on the call

I fell in love with you the first time
I talked to you.
I remember the night
I was having fun
Hanging out with my best friend
You was dating her though
I remember saying that I wanted you so bad.
Then spring Break came
You and her was over
And i wanted a beginning
A beginning with you
I thought I would call you one night
We talked for hours
About everything and anything
"Will you go out with me,Megan?
I was so happy I felt like nothing could bring me down.
Then my ex called.
Your so ugly
Your so fat,Megan
Who would wanna date someone like you?
So I called you
I tryed to fake the laugh
But you knew better
what the matter Baby?
I said nothing
You asked again
And then I lost it and told you what had happened
You told me to calm down
not to worry
that you'll always be there
that I'm not ugly I'm beautiful
That I'm not fat I'm perfect
Then i smiled
i was so happy
then you said
I love you baby
thats all i needed to hear.
to know that you was the one.
A couple months went by
And then your phone calls stopped
Right when I didn't need them to,.
Then that one night came.
Your screen name came on AOL
So i I'M you
You said hey
I had a bad feeling though
then you asked
Do you love me
I said yes more then anything
Then I asked you the same question
You said no then the screen said
Skatnjay signed off
My heart broke
I can't believe whats happening
what did I do?
I can't do nothing right
My best friend ditched me for her boyfriend
My grandma is dying
And the only thing I want doesn't love me.
Why is my life falling apart
So the razor become my best friend
Every night I would tell it my feelings
One might i was telling it how i felt while the bloods pours out
Suddenly the phone rang
It was you
You said you was sorry and that you do love me
And then I broke down
I told you everything
You said you was on your way
i said no I'll be fine
Just stay on the phone with me.
And you did
We Stayed up all night talking about how everything was happening
And then I felt loved again
I realized that someone will always love me
But things just got worse
I failed all my classes
My grandma was getting worse
My best friend never called me
Then your phone calls stopped again
Once again the bloody hands suddenly came back
I didn't know What to do
I thought about ending my whole world
Then of course you called
But this time it was different
I didn't break down
i was to numb
So I talked to you
told you a fake life
Then you started calling every night
Everything was so good
I was becoming happy again
Then you asked if I come live with you
Of course I said Yes I love you
Then we made plans
We were going to move to Florida for a while to live with your family
Then move to California so I could live my dreams
But then you asked me to give up them
You want to start a family
Your ready but what If I'm not
You already thought of kids names
WOW your rushing things
I can't think anymore with all this pressure
We been together for only 6 months
But I looked past all that
till you stopped calling again
But I didn't even notice this time
I didn't let it get to me anymore
I realized theres other problems
Rather then worrying about that.
So now here I am writing this to you.
Wondering if you even miss me
Who knows all I'm doing is waiting for the call.