My Saved Suicide

Walking to my car after school
trying to keep in my tears, but
when I'm alone I couldn't hold it
anymore my heart has been destroyed
from the man I love though I still
do.

I drive my way home screaming in the
silence yelling why didn't you say you
loved her instead of me finding out.
My family liked you an excepted you
in our home.

I drive passed my house and drive to
yours though my eye's start to get
blurry and I can't see a thing I hear
the noise of tires and metal
crushing. Finding my body in a ditch
unconscious.

At least I wrote that note before I
left this world, but I can see the lights
flashing around me finding myself in
a hospital bed doctors trying to get
my heart to go again and every time
I can feel the bolts of electricity through
my body.

Waking up later on though I hear a
voice that I don't ever want to hear
ever again. Bolting awake screaming
get the @@@@ out you ruined my life
you stupid@@@@@ leave seeing tears
forming in her eye's I say to her
your tears will not make me sad since
my tears didn't make you all you did was
laugh.

Looking at the one I still love he looks
at me sadly saying I didn't mean to
hurt you I was stupid and immature
I smile at him and feel my heart dieing
doctors rushing in to save me pushing him
out of my way, but I hang on to his
hand saying quietly I would probably live
if you tell me the three words I've been
dieing to hear for so long from you, but if
you don't I will die knowing I was never
loved by anyone.

Tears are streaming down his face he kisses
hand and says Lindsay I love you so very much
please don't die on me right now... beep beep
beep my heart stopped failing on me I smile
up and says to him you just saved me from
my suicide...