My Thoughts__

For Some reason today,
Your smile just keeps coming through my head,
And every time I wish it'd go away,
The More it stayed.
Sometimes I dream of our kisses we shared,
And thats when I feel like I need to pull out my hair,
I've let you go once,
I've let you go twice,
I'm sure enough I can let you go three times.
But to be honest,
And to be mature about it,
Your all I've been thinking about,
What are you doing,
Where have you been,
Has my smile even been in your head?
I remember the last time we held hands,
And I swear it fit mine so well.
It was like a kid in a room full of chocolate,
All warm and fuzzy.
I remember that time,
In the rain on my front porch stairs,
We kept looking up,
And your hands flowing through my hair,
Our eyes were drenched with wetness,
And you kept saying you didn't know if it was the rain or me crying,
But either way I looked beautiful,
And I knew you weren't lying.
I look back when we used to fight in your room,
And we'd throw pillows at each other because we couldn't stand each other,
Only for that moment,
But those looks in our eyes,
To my very surprise,
We just couldn't handle it.
Ugh, Why do I love you,
And to this moment,
Still do ... ?
Every time we talk,
I literally cant stand you ..
But sitting here thinking of you,
And yet I'm crying,
Your figure, your face, your love, your grace, it's never leaving, nor ever dying ..
And Sometimes i wish ..
You were still standing on my porch in the rain,
or in your room with the pillow,
Because maybe it'd all be okay again,
But right now I just cant help it,
But to sit here and cry ..
Ugh why so much pain,
Why ..?
I guess, I'll never know.