I just wish you would come home

I know you would turn over in your grave,
if you could see what i have become today,
a shadow of who i was,
under your wings
of protection
and your words
of guidance
Rosie, i just wish you would come home.

The words punctured my soul
you can't be gone
granted countless sympathies
but they mean nothing,
they wont bring you back
i understand that death is in every corner
the ghost lurking in the halls
the coffin that we will all rest in
but it wasn't your time
i pray to you a last goodbye
kneeling down on church ground
this corrupted Faith
under watchful eyes
of stained glass windows,
gleaming lights filtering through
this place is cold
and you have departed
i know you will not hear me now
so I'll send a letter to heaven
hoping the angels will deliver it to you
i need you here
please come home and sit with me,
we can sit in silence, thats all i need
no words need to be said,
no sorrys lets put our differences to death
just come back tell me how selfish i am
strike a match and light up again
but the match box is empty
the smoke has been cleared
your chair in the corner is empty
not occupied by anyone but the memory of you.
that fills the room with unsettled dew
of defeated tears that never left my eyes
keeping up the pretense
keep strong
with a false smile
when inside I'm shattered
i never said goodbye
in a vain attempt to repair the damage
i took the last chance as you lay still
he told me to kiss you goodbye,i refused
so on your forehead he kissed you twice
said one was from me
you looked peaceful in your final sleep
in my eyes you were just Rosie all along.
forevermore.

**this is completely free form because i couldnt even begin to structure the emotions