Never underestimate

I'm worried about how i take
The thoughts i cant create
and turn them into words
that wont deteriorate

i cant believe my words wont stick
i know my thoughts will contradict
my actually thoughts and my actually plan
to help myself not give up again

i don't know how to be myself
i don't know why they don't understand
why i don't care who you are
as long as you don't know who i am

i want you to hold me and
pry into my mind
grow to understand me
and see through my lies

i know you don't get it
and you prolly never will
but life's not to f *** over
life's meant to live

no matter how hard it is
no matter how much pain
life's not to be regretted
its meant to be lived

i don't know what I'm trying to say
i don't know what i wished you understand
i don't want you to forget your life
i just want to be able to live