Everywhere I'll go

Tears,
there are only tears,
everywhere I look.
A salt-crust was formed on the table.
My clothes are wet.
Swollend papers lie on the floor.
They couldn't resist.
Just as you couldn't stand the pain anymore.

Grey,
there is only Grey,
everywhere I look.
But the sun is shining,
as nothing has happened.
The sky should shed tears,
it should befog everything.
What should I do without you here?

Music,
there is only music,
everywhere I listen.
Songs, that remind me of you.
Lyrics, which you liked.
My eyes are filled with tears.
Is this the last song which you listened to?
- I don't know.

Thoughts,
there are only thoughts,
everywhere I go.
They are eating me up from the inside.
So many questions are teasing my brain.
Did I love you too little?
What was you last thought - I?

Memories,
there are only memories,
everywhere I go.
Your roses are still standing on my table.
The lion is watching me sleeping.
Your birthday present to me is with my every day and night.
The necklace with your picture - soon
Do you also remember me?

Words,
there are only words,
everywhere I go.
Nice things, which we said,
full of love.
Bad things, which we told us,
full of pain.
If only I could talk with you once again.

Wishes,
there are only wishes,
everywhere I go.
"If only I could make a deal with God"
I wish you were here again.
Happy and full of enjoyment of life.
With a smile on your face,
and your arms entangled around me.

This poems was originally written in German. I think, that it's bad, 'cause I'm not that good in English and I can't express my feelings as in German. I'm sorry if there are any mistakes.

This poem is dedicated to my first love Juli
16.02.1992 - 28.03.2007

I love you and I miss you like hell.
True love is never ended by death!