Letting go.

Ive became older, and I've learned just to throw things over my shoulder and run. you held me in Ur heart for so long i just couldn't escape.. you say the right words, you keep me put together in the mean time. but when your gone, I'm all broken up inside. i cant let you control me i cant let you be the only reason why i wake up in the morning, because if thats how its going to be, i might as well die. I'm letting go now, just because in the mean time I'm going to forget how.. i cant let your words pressure me any longer. you dont acknowledge me when you walk inside my heart..you walk around like you own it and like you dont care if it tears apart. I'm not going to be played like a toy, or get yelled at like a dog.. I'm not anything to you anymore. and thats what hurts. I'm not anything to you, when you were my everything to me. loving you is what kept me going...but sometimes you have to let go, and sometimes it has be now. if i throw you back in the world i hope you see how much i loved you, and how much i cared. all i ever wanted you was to be happy..but your happiness was just never there. so here we go..heres the end. thanks for letting me now everything in the end, when it just didn't matter anymore. this is how things happen when you hide things behind closed doors.