Welcome to my world
The way I feel right now, is the way I feel most times
Looking for a negative, or a new flaw that I can find
The anxiety starts to run, through this body that is mine
Although I feel detached, I pretend that I am fine
Nobody can really see when they are looking at me
That inside everything is racing, as fast as can be
The dizziness sets in, and I think I will fall down
I hold on to the table where I sit, while it all spins around
My heart starts to beat, it pounds against my chest
All over my body, its putting me to the test
I clench my jaw real tight, and start to touch my face
I am trembling all over; I am scared of this place
When it finally calms down, and I am having a good day
I am trying to relax, hoping the calm will stay
My mind starts to wonder, about the bad things in life
The past horrors I have seen, all the pain and the strife
I think about the love, but just the one that I have lost
And when that topic hits, I run, but at what cost?
The tears start to fall, when the loss hurts too deep
So I change to another topic, so that I can fall asleep
So I start to think about, everything that I need to get done
The next day, week and month, everything under the sun
The stress takes its toll, and the thinking needs to stop
Before I have a break down, or my mind might just pop
The line I use most, cant remember why I am stressed
So I start to stress again, till my mind is all messed
I think Im going crazy; I have finally lost the plot
I try to tell myself, that the end, this is not
I am putting on a front; you all think that I am ok
This is not the truth; I am far, far away
In my own little world, destructive as it is to me
I am getting further away, from the person I want to be
The person that I was, before all of the tragedy
Independent, cuddly and strong, thats what I want to see
I want to stand out again, and I want to have goals and dreams
I dont want to think of the past, when I do it hurts too bad
It makes me get upset, and it makes me feel extremely sad
At the end of the day, my demands are truly simple
The glass isnt half empty, the glass is half full
The true reality is, that at the end of every day
The anxiety, stress and grief, I won't let it stand in my way
I want everyone to know, that I am not just another girl
I welcome you to this life Welcome to my world.
