Someone could understand (about eating)

I don't think anybody really could understand,
The depth of my problem and help me with a plan...

Pain endorses me every single day,
I pray and pray that one day, I'll be OK..

Through my body, knocking on my bones,
I keep failing trying to figure out life on my own!

Addictions could be the title in this so-called life,
Because I'm battling them every single night...

And it's a shame because eating is now the enemy,
I'm unhappy and I guess this time... I chose to be...

I could've changed my ways and changed them fast,
But I just let these ways carry out in the past...

And now I eat, I get terribly sick,
I wish it was a lie... I wish it was a trick...

This muscle pain and tiredness is not helping me get by,
Especially every time i stop, i just want to break down and cry...

I'm lying to my friends, telling them, "Hey, I'm OK,"
If i really told them what's wrong, would they know what to say?

Crying anymore seems to just rip me down inside,
Because this addiction is making me want to hide...

It's getting out and people are starting to know,
I'm getting confused, mad, and sad... I don't know where to go...

My biggest fear of that I know is that I will become fat,
But when I look at somebody else who "is", i can't even call them that!

Society's diet has finally really taken control over me!
I thought I was strong, cocky & smart... I thought I was only being happy...

This addiction has seemed in it's own way to drag out on it's own,
These tears I cry when i break down at night remind me how I am alone...

And things would be much more easier in this life of mine,
If someone would stop and help me out, just give me a sign...

I'm losing my mind and losing it fast, I think I'm going crazy...
And it feels anymore that in this world, there is nobody that can save me...

I just need someone to stop for a minute and lend me a hand,
God, please give me someone who for one moment could understand...