Only about today

I use to write happy poems but now they cease to be
i try to think of a good one but only anger runs threw me
i screwed up bad and now to everyone I'm a freak
its like I'm climbing the highest mountain but theres no peak

so dazed and confused wondering how many lives ruined
theres gonna be more times were i can say I'm finally doomed
what i use to call a friend is now not more to me then dirt
they only wanna steal and rob and find reasons to make me hurt

I'm a disappointment to my family, like a tow with his batteries low
and the place to replace them I'm to stubborn to show
after 16 years i cant believe this is how it turned out to be
i just need some time and courage to show the best part of me

just another day to be fearing tomorrow
and just another day to hide my sorrow
maybe one day ill have the courage to say
that i wont be thinking about tomorrow, only about today