Why did I fall

The smiles always kill me,
because deep down inside i really know that i have worked so hard and wasted so much time and i realized i was going slowly no where fast,when i felt like i loved her it seemed way to good to be true, i looked to find different,you say you love me so i get confused, my heart started off fine, then got bruised to make me feel like i was just used,i fell for the lies along with your i love you and ill never leave you and its forever, thats until i listened close and understood them to be all good byes.I'm sorry