Playing pretend

Im alone
With my back against the wall
Trying to be silent
Not letting my tears fall

Your mum might hear me choke up
And she needs the sympathy
So ill sit alone on your bed
Nobody but me

I stare around your room
Knowing your not here
Wishing youd walk through the door
Wanting you to be near

I can hear everyone talking
They say why would he take his own life
He even had a girlfriend
Hearing that cuts deeper than a knife

My friends pretend to care
But they gossip to the whole school
I sigh instead of breath
Try to walk but instead i fall

I want to be me again
Not a hurt little kid
I feel like a sob story
Because of what he did

I want to wake up
And be myself again
No guilt hurt or fear
But most of all no pain