Three Months Ago

Three months ago,
I went to a counselor's office...
For problems only I know,
Hoping he could solve all of this...

Within the time of meeting,
Pretty intense words were said...
My heart was quickly beating,
Hearing the words that I dread...

"God, you are so attractive!"
He didn't even know my name yet...
Not now, I don't want to do this!
Those lines I'll just try to forget...

Minutes went on,
He grabbed the seat next to me...
I tried to remain calm and strong,
But i was there uncomfortably...

He started to rub my stomach then,
He started to feel my hip bones...
I cried, hoping this was all pretend,
It felt like I was bombarded with stones...

His voice was going through me,
He wouldn't stop rubbing my arm...
I wanted to run on the count of three,
But i guess i wasn't in that much harm...

His perverted lines were so lame,
But they hurt me so bad...
He didn't even really know my name,
I started thinking of the past rapes I had...

He told me to smile while he massaged my hand,
I started to cry some more...
He told me he will try to understand,
But he doesn't know what I'm even upset for...

Time was up, I was ready to leave,
He kept hugging me and wouldn't let go...
This was too sudden to even believe,
God, i never felt this low!

Hour drives were then filled with tears,
I couldn't even think straight...
He filled me up with all of the fears,
That I finally were able to eliminate...

Three months have finally past,
And I'm in a better spot than before...
But the memory still does last,
It kills me more and more...

Because I'm getting older now,
And I'm starting my own life...
And I have to figure out how,
To make all of those wrongs right...

Three months ago you made me so scared,
You took away all trust that I had...
But I finally saw how many people cared,
Now I'm beginning to smile through all of the bad...