It was You And Me

It was you and me,

it changed it was u n him,

u n me grew apart,

then it became me n someone else,

or few people and i,

over 6 months,

i grew a few great friendships,

with other people,

u n him broke up,

u think it will be u n me again?

don't u?

cause wrong,

it wont,

I've changed,

yet so have you,

I'm breaking apart,

wen u try n get close,

i seep away,

but not just from u,

everyone,

u push me away from them,

so i will be closer with u,

it works,

i push them away,

but lately,

I've been trying to push u all away,

so no one feels pain,

except me,

as my anger grows,

i throw more things,

as i watch it hit the wall,

then fall to the ground,

as i can feel the pain,

i drop to my knees,

n let the tears drip drop down my cheeks,

everything now is changing,

i cant grab my grip,

so i sit n think,

wishing i was someone else,

wishing i was no loner in pain,

or here,

so i don't have to cry all year again,

you always pull me away,

u make me fed up with myself,

wen I'm really fed up wait u,

do u ever wonder?

why lately I've been so down?

u pulled me away so much I've lost grip on myself,

I'm pushing everyone away n i hate it,

i can even talk to my best friends anymore,

because i pushed them away too,

everyone is here,

but I'm not opening to them,

I'm hiding it,

so i can feel,

feel like crap,

if its anything i feel,

why can i run?

because I'm so mad,

that i smash things ?

that my heart is torn,

but yet loved at the same time,

i feel nervous,

because i cant leave cause side,

u need me,

u two just broken up,

I'm here,

even if it means,

to hate myself,

for what i am doing to everyone today,

I'm lost,

i always look up wen I'm down,

never behind,

because no one would be there,

i look on a star,

wishing for everything to be alright,

that my crying will stop at night,

but I'm wrong,

how could i ever be right?

YOU SAID I'D BE HERE?

WHERE ARE U?

I CANT FIND YOU?

I'M FALLING CATCH ME!!!!!!!!

I'm on my knees bagging god please,

take me,

i have done sins,

but no one knows,

because the sins hide inside,

as i scream for help,

for you god,

to save me,

from this so called life..