Missing You

Sitting at the table, I did not have a clue
This would be our last time together
Of course now I do
I wish that I had hugged you,
And that I had not looked so ill
This memory of my last day with you
And old photos sting like a drill

Sometimes I do not feel it
I pretend you are still here
That when I go back home, I will have nothing to fear
Tonight it feels real; I know that you are gone
While the memories are clear, you really did move on

I walk around the block, and contemplate where you are
What happens after life? Are you now a star?
I gaze up at the sky, and focus on the brightest light
Looking beyond the twinkle, and stare straight into the night

We used to laugh and run around
Always having a fun time
Where did that girl go
That day last year when she died?

Is there a heaven?
Or is there just eternal nothing?
I’d really like to know.
For I hope that you are still something.

Do you watch us here on Earth?
Or am I just too focused on me?
Maybe you have moved on,
And were re-born into a new family

I wish that I could comprehend
Why this had to be
For now I will act like I have accepted
This awful tragedy

R.I.P. <3