Anorexia

I'm looking out the window
the sun is shining on my skin
i just can't bring myself to move
I've let my illness win

for if i go outside today
then everyone will see
the reason i refuse to show
this other side of me

the side of me thats so run down
mentally torn to shreds
so maybe I'll just stay inside
I'm safe when I'm in bed

these sheets they are my fortress
my shield from all the pain
these pillows hear my problems
when my tears, they fall like rain

they have no clue about this life
and what it does to me
i feel so small and helpless
i wish they all could see

on the outside i look happy
like i dance my way through life
but dig a little deeper
you'll see I'm doused in strife

what is so simple to most of you
to me, is a treacherous task
like a gambler with no money
an alcoholic with no flask

the foods you put into your mouth
without a second thought
is the very reason my insanity
has left me so distraught

for if i eat a single bite
I'm weak and i have failed
i feel like jumping off a bridge
like a train thats been De-railed

you say i look just fine
"oh my god shes just so thin"
it doesn't matter what you say
i know I'll never win

because my problem lies so deep
within my tortured mind
my sanity is so long gone
reality left behind

there is no hope for girls like me
that just can't be satisfied
with the way we see ourselves
we couldn't be normal if we tried