Blood and tears

I'm sitting here
All alone by myself
Surrounded by darkness
Only one candle gives a tiny bit of light
I'm in a battle
I cant seem to fight

The razor next to me
Thoughts about that day
When he left me
With nothing but memories
An empty room and a broken heart
Which love somehow tore apart

As i slit my wrist
I see his face
I can still remember
Everything he said
Every single tear that dropped
He just left me there

I can still feel the pain
And how my heart broke
He didn't care at all
He simply looked at me
Looked at how i fall

4 months of darkness
16 weeks of pain
Everyday i sit and cry
While i scream out his name

I tried to let go
But i still love him
With all of my heart
Although its broken and torn apart

I wish he knew
How i felt
What I'm going through
How much i cry at night
All because of him

I always say
Don't cry over anyone
Who wont cry over you
But every time i find myself
Crying over you

There's nothing i can do
Nothing i can say
Coz you don't feel a thing anymore
I'm not the girl
You truly adore

I cant understand
What did i do wrong
What made you decide
To leave me
And go through that door

Did i say something
That hurt you
Or did you think
I'm not worth it
So you'll just go

I'm so disappointed
In you
But mostly in myself
Coz i feel
That i could have stopped you
So you could stay here with me

But i let you slip away
I hate myself
For letting you go
I punish myself
By cutting
I still love you so

I'm sitting here crying
My blood is flowing
I look at it with swollen eyes
While its mixing with my tears

There's nothing i can do now
You've disappeared
I'm left alone here
With blood dripping
And flowing tears...