Tired of Saying I'm Alright

I'm having another day from hell,
As soon as I awoke, all hope fell...

Everything feels so screwed up anymore!
Nothing feels like it did before...

I can't tell you why i feel this way,
I just can't find the words to say...

I just know that no, I am not alright,
And I feel this way every single night...

I've put so much trust into people these days,
Then they up and leave me on separate ways...

God, it hurts SO MUCH when you feel like nobody cares,
You have this fake smile that nobody else wears...

Everything fell apart years ago,
For reasons that I will never ever know...

And I'm trying to do this life on my own!
But it's so hard when you're all alone...

To make everybody else happy, I pull so many strings,
I'm the one who does all of those little things...

But I guess I shouldn't expect to get something in return,
Life is a fire and alls I'm receiving is a third degree burn...

I know that bad things have happened to me,
And it shouldn't be the reason of why I'm not happy...

But I'll just make clear that I won't give up on this fight,
I guess I'm just tired of saying that I'm alright...