Needing More Time

He said he wants me, but I don't know
I just want to step back and take it slow
We started as friends but he wants more
Ive tried to tell him its different than before

I was 15 when I knew him, and that was a long time ago
now 10 years later hes letting me know
he never forgot about me even after what I did
he forgave me and said I was just a kid

I see him as a friend and right now thats all
hes someone I can talk to, a friend that I call
but truth in the matter is, I still love my kids dad
and thats what makes the situation worse, and why I feel bad

Yes he is sweet and very kind
yet I know I need more than 3 weeks of time
Its not enough time to be over the one I love
especially when hes still the only man I think of

So what do I say to someone who cares
knowing his feelings I cannot share
yes I can be sweet and also be kind
but truth in the matter is I need some more time

So what I told him Is I just want to be friends
hes trying to rekindle our relationship again
and I feel bad I don't know what to say
when he asks me why with him I didn't stay