Creature

Even in the depths of my mind
i never knew
someone, anyone, could hold this loathing
nothing matches it
this hate
it's unbreakable

i didn't think i could hate
hate something so much
until i get cold from the ferocity
of this...this feeling
why?
why me?

it's so cold
i cannot breathe, it suffocates my mind
my heart, body, what is wrong?
it's me isn't it.
i'm wrong
just freezing myself

floating in this endless darkness
every light gets snuffed out
i cannot stand it
no longer
but i can't escape
these pools of darkness

surrounding me
eating away at me
until i no longer exist
this cold, cold hatred
turned towards myself
i cannot love what i will become

can anyone?
unloved is this creature
crawling across the floor
squish it, break it
until it can no longer cry
make this creature happy

for no one can love a monster
not even the world
erase it from this world
take pity,
forget what needs to be forgotten
her tears will fall no more.