Not eating.

I'm a girl that can't eat..
I'm a girl that can't smile
I'm a girl that can't deny
And I'm a girl that do things that my body can't beat

I'm not proud
I'm still not eating
I'm still searching
But I cannot be found

I'm still fat
I'm still ugly
I can't be myself
Because all what I do is bad.

I think of being thin
I think of things I can eat
I think how I can life
And how I can win..

I live a horrible life
I live a life without food
I can't be happy
Because without food transform my mood.

If I eat it would be wrong
Because then I'm fatter
And if I doesn't eat
I'm proud and strong

Now I'm trying to find myself
Because now I realized what I did..
And hoping to be a girl that's herself.